Television

I have a problem. I watch TV shows, and become so immersed in the stories and the characters that I begin to think and act like them. It's not normal.

When I watched Weeds (The entire series back to back without stopping) I truly began to think about things and solve problems the way Nancy Botwin would. I just loved her. I think there was a part of this fictional character that I honestly admired and wanted to be like. I know she isnt real, but I can't help it!

Six feet under is what I'm watching now, and I am experiencing a noticeable level of pessimism creeping into my daily thoughts. It's really an amazing show. Changed my life in High School and i think really opened the door into these "alternatives" types of entertainment and music and movies and all that.

Is anyone else like this? Do I do this because I'm so unhappy with my current persona that I am so readily able to pick up one of another person? A FAKE person!?

Sometimes I feel like I need these shows, to help me sort out the feelings I have about whats going on in my own life. If its acted out perfectly in a TV show with the perfect soundtrack and lighting and dialogue, I'm able to say "YES! I know EXACTLY what you mean!!!" I'm able to better figure these things out.

I guess thats kind of weird, and I should learn how to do this sort of thinking on my own... But i'm so obsessed with movie music and soundtracks and playlists that I think I'd prefer to have my life sorted out in 'movie moments' if you will...